I feel lost. I am sad that another spring and summer are coming up and I'm not going to hike the PCT. There will be people out there hiking the PCT but none of them will be me. I don't have any plans at all, not for big hikes and not really for life. I feel aimless. Add to that my part-time job which leaves me with a lot of time on my hands, time I'm not using wisely. I have time and nothing to do, no goal to work toward. I practice my music for hours, I have a class that has started, but no real plan.
What happens to a person when they finally do something they've always wanted to do? What happens after that?
I am trying to keep a positive attitude and not feel down about this, but pushing these feelings down doesn't actually make them go away.