I am lonely. I miss the culture of the trail. I also miss the culture of the workplace.
At one of my previous jobs I worked with a guy who was polar opposite from me on the political spectrum. But we got along really well. We talked shop all the time. He would teach me Java and I would teach him CSS. He'd call me over to the whiteboard to hash out some complicated program or schema he was working on. We had a great time inventing things and building them together. I miss that a lot.
I enjoy working for myself and my smattering of part-time jobs. But all these things are very solitary. I wear headphones working with the whale calls. I work alone most of the time at the pet store. The freelancing is mostly alone, and since I barely do much of it anyway, the rest of my time is spent alone trying to find work, writing, reading, practicing music and sometimes even hiking. I really wish that I had workplace friends. Without them I fear I'm lacking the keys to success.
I don't mind walking alone or working alone. Solitude is in my nature. But sharing camaraderie with others is where growth can happen and without it, I feel adrift and lonely.